We’ll be picking Jaime up on Tuesday. The other three should be out before her return. They were supposed to move in today but a water line broke. Always something. I have really been trying to let things go and apply the scriptures to my current situation. Sometimes I am successful but only sometimes. More often I find myself irritated with all these little bits of ember that add up into a fiery blaze.
I didn’t wish to focus on my irritations
but at the same time knew that I needed to write things down as a reminder why
they are never coming back to live under the same roof as me – smiling as I do
it because I think about their also keeping a list of reasons why they will
never return. I’m guessing they are more
excited by the move of finally getting out on their own than I am to see them
go. I personally don’t believe they are financially prepared. We have tried to
tell them but there are some things that need to be learned through experience.
I see scenarios with our treatment
toward them and our Heavenly Father toward us.
We may ask Heavenly Father for blessings but rarely does he grant us
those blessings right away – at least in my experience. He sends me the tools that I may obtain the
blessing with His guidance. Sometimes the blessing I thought I wanted turns out
to be something greater – but always in His due time though there have been a
few that have been in mine.
Richard’s solution has always been to
provide – give, give, and give some more even when there is nothing left to
give. He still hasn’t been able to cut
the apron strings. It’s not that I wish
to see Biff and Clair suffer. I would
like to see them grow. I would like to
see them find other resources – which perhaps they already have. I don’t know.
They have slowly allowed us into their lives but for the most part have
attempted to do everything without saying a word to us. They have tried to do it on their own. But really we can’t do everything on our
own. We all need others to draw from and
to confide in. We need to rely upon our Maker.
I wish they were moving away further
than they are. They wanted to be closer
to Portland but are going to be ten minutes further – not that big of deal, but
it would be nice if they could be only an hour’s drive instead of three – how they
make it in just three, I’ll never know. That is the amount provided by
Google. Google doesn’t take into account
the congestion of traffic or detours due to construction. Apparently neither have they.
I wish them well. Looking forward to having my space again.
