When I was little, I used to spin around until I got dizzy and then spin some more. Especially when I had pleats on. My skirt or dress would twirl with me. I thought that was major cool.
I don’t know how old I was when I lost my balance or perhaps I had just spun into the end table. Either way, I was bleeding from a gash just above my right eye. I had to have stitches. As a result I have a small indentation just above my right eye. Sort of like a dimple. Small though. Not actually noticed by many.
I have had some people notice that my right eye does look smaller than my left. Not a noticeable difference to most people – but those who study my face harder have wondered about it.
In December I had a sinus infection which pained my left eye. In January it was my right eye – but only for a day. With January’s eye infection, there were been few people who didn’t noticed the difference in eye size as my right eye appeared to have swollen almost all the way shut. It was weird. I had considered making an appointment with the doctor again on the following day (for it was a Sunday that my eyelids revealed only a slit of my eye) but by Monday morning it was gone.
By coincidence I had also taken Alka-Seltzer plus cold medicine all three times. I used to think it was the absolutely best cold medicine for me personally. But now I wonder if they changed the formula. Or perhaps it’s counter-reacting to something else I had that day (like chocolate? maybe) or if it’s the very dry air in our house. Or if it’s the water itself.
The pain behind the eye is not the worst part. The worst part is being so disoriented that I’m not quite aware of what is going on around me. So disoriented that I forget to drink water and become dehydrated. In December I was just such a neglectful mother towards Jenna – who was home from school for the holidays.
Today it is my left eye. The closure of the lid makes it appear almost even with my right eye. They haven’t looked near the same size as one another in over forty years.
I am grateful for modern medicine. For medical science and research. And for those who take the time to learn it and pass it on.