I think I must have mentioned that Roland accepted a position at a jewelry store – supposedly local but has been training in both Eugene and Medford in addition to “visiting” in Roseburg. He has used me as his sounding board before whenever he has been assigned to give a talk or lesson in church. I would rather listen to it fresh than to hear him rehearse it – but I understand. My mom did the same thing.
Well, now he wants me to be a sounding board for his work
and I am SO UNINTERESTED in the quality of diamonds or the luster of diamonds
or what makes them what. I really don’t
care. And it gets harder to listen each
time he tries to practice as I become more and more uninterested. I used to wear costume jewelry all the time –
until my mission. Haven’t worn much
since.
Roland
would like to go out and make nice purchases for both Jenna and me and it’s
just not practical. I know I should be
more grateful that he thinks that is the way to show me off. But I would rather not be showed off for what
is around my neck or on my finger. Rings
aren’t even a part of the ceremony that takes place within the temples that are
part of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
They’re
symbols. Funny thing is those things I
am truly attached to are for sentiment and usually have no financial
value. Perhaps I should be more
sentimental about jewelry given in sentiment – but I’m not. Currently I am wearing a locket which he gave
me. He always asks when I’m not wearing – which is often. It’s expensive! And I tend to be careless and misplace things
all of the time. I told him not to buy
it or even the wedding band (number three at that) that continues to fall off
my finger.
They
should be reminders of how much he loves me – but material items don’t express
love to me. They have become reminders
of how our money could have been better spent. I suppose it seems callous of me. Our communication skills are still something
to behold. At least Jenna and I get one
another.
