I seem to have such a hard time waking up and staying focused – which I’m certain my readers recognized with my last post. Perhaps I should just delete it and start over.
In August of 2018, I had applied for a teacher’s aide position within the school district. I had been interviewed at three of the five schools but was not hired through any of them. Instead, I stayed on as a substitute which gave me the option of filling in for aides at all five schools. Turned out to be a good fit as it gives me more options and flexibility. At least it did.
My first assignment was at the end of September. I had accepted a position at the middle school. It was a very positive experience and I had been grateful for the opportunity. The next day I was filling in for somebody at one of the elementary schools. I referred to it as my day from hell. I was not a happy camper.
One of the aides asked if I would ever come back. I said I would – though it would not be my first choice. I had filled in for another aide at that same elementary school and hated it even more. I no longer accept positions at that elementary school.
I was not given an opportunity to work at the other elementary until the end of October. Out of the three schools I have been accepting positions from, this is my favorite. I can now honestly say that I have put more hours in at this elementary school than the other two schools combined. The two-week assignment that I had accepted in January has turned into the duration.
I still have three more classes before I complete my online schooling. Right now I am taking a class in public communications. My first-week assignment was to write about a confrontation in the work situation and how I would go about handling it. Initially, my mind had taken me in one direction than what I ended up writing about. I briefly mentioned the fire drill and “for-real” evacuation in this post. From that, I took the importance of having a walkie-talkie on me at all times. As I am quite low on the totem pole, I imagined the coordinator giving the speech to me.
My week-two assignment was to start a speech that I will give for this week. At first I recorded all the details that happened with the fire drill versus the real evacuation. I only needed 400 words. I think I had over 2,000 and so had to cut it down quite a bit and leave out all the details. I should be practicing my speech right now, but my throat has been sore. Currently, it is raining very hard. I think the rain is/will be louder than I am.
It’s been raining a lot. So often when it is raining outside, I am feeling hot inside. That doesn’t even make sense to me and yet it really does happen. I’ve been sleeping well. Perhaps too well. I find it hard to get myself up. I think the weather must be draining me somehow. Or maybe it’s my daily routine at the elementary school. The time doesn’t always move as quickly as it used to.
The internet on my computer seems to reflect my tiredness. It comes and goes. Mostly goes. Spaces out while I am trying to do something – or listen to something. The internet will “doze” or just cut out and go to sleep. Maybe that’s what’s making me tired. For example, I was listening to some songs on YouTube while I started this post. The internet cut out and I am too sleepy to express anger or frustration. I’m tired. And my day hasn’t even started. I may be taking a nap pretty soon.
