I had written my last post as a free verse to make it seem more interesting, but I lost the vision of what I had intended. What had triggered my thought on climbing in the first place was watching Roland climb up the unstable ladder. It looks unstable leaning in mushy ground. He was fixing the porch light and connecting it to another stapling the cord in place. I was awed at his ability to look up.
I tend to lose my balance quite
easily – especially if I am looking up.
I get dizzy when I am standing still on solid ground. I think if I were climb a ladder now and
looked up I would fall. I have fallen at
least twice because of whatever has made me dizzy. I fell in my bedroom before we were
married. I don’t remember if I had even
known Roland at the time.
My former neighbor Peggy had
collected nativity scenes and would put them on display each year after I was
married. She had invited Jenna to play
an angel in the Bird’s annual Christmas pageant. She had brought home clothes for each cast
member to wear and had opened the box in the room with the nativities. I had fallen into one – I think one of the
pieces may have broken. I felt so bad –
especially because I think Peggy thought Jenna had been responsible for the
breakage. But Jenna wasn’t even near
enough the nativity that spilled over.
Nobody was except for me. If
someone else had been there, I may have fallen into them.
I had an MRI in 2013. The results did not prove anything about my
brain activity. Everything appeared
normal. The dizziness comes and goes. Perhaps all the twirling I had done as a kid
finally caught up with me. I would spin
and spin and never get tired of it.
Perhaps my brain was triggered somehow.
I know old people who function quite
well both mentally and physically. I
know young people who have been stricken either mentally or physically –
sometimes both. I think I fall into the
category of the latter. My dad was young
when his body muscles were paralyzed by strokes. Mom hadn’t even turned 70 yet when we learned
she had dementia. I don’t know if either
are hereditary. I know I eat too much sugar. I may have diabetes. I would like to abstain from sugar for at
least six weeks. I heard that is how
long it takes for the sugar to leave the system.
