When I was younger I would often spin around several times until I felt dizzy and stop – either of my own will or because I had crashed into something. The dizziness was not completely bothersome as a youth as it is as an adult – an aged one at that.
Getting into a car when I am feeling
light headed is not always the best idea. The dizziness had seemingly made me
naucious and when we had stopped for gas on the way home I removed myself from
the car, threw up and told Richard I would just walk to my mom’s house as we
were not far. I started to walk in the
direction of her house. Richard followed
behind me in the car. I got back in and
he drove slow.
On December 23, 2007 I fell into my
neighbor’s nativities because I got dizzy.
It was a Sunday. On January 10th
this year I discovered an abscessed tooth – how long have I had that? And yesterday I felt light headed in the
morning. And experienced a scary
dizziness that seemed to make the room spin.
I threw up. I looked up my
symptoms. Probably my abscessed tooth
because it is connected to the heart.
I keep on telling Richard that abscessed
teeth can lead to death. I am not scared
to die. But I don’t wish to live Jaime
and Richard right now. I think it will
be devastating for Jaime especially as Richard will probably leave the state
and move in with our youngest son.
He has wanted to get rid of Bonnie for
some time. If I were to die Jaime would
not lose only me but Bonnie as well. I
love my daughter so much. I don’t want
her to be sad.
In three weeks I’ll have three teeth
extracted from my mouth. Her birthday is
the following day.
