I could have never become a doctor. I especially couldn’t have been a surgeon. For one thing I’m really not smart enough. Even moreso, I am squeamish. Major squeamish. Finding myself nauseated by special effects shown in medical shows and even commercials. I am a whimp. There really is no denying it. I can’t pretend that I’m not. Anybody who knows me knows that I can act my way out of a lot of situations, but not when it comes to my extremely weak guts. I don’t have nerves of steel. They’re more like silly putty.
So except for the given profession, I just seem to relate a lot to the Emily Owens character on CW’s Emily Owen, MD.
She has compassion for her patients – perhaps too much compassion. She feels things and allows emotions to get in the way. Sometimes what she says doesn’t match what she thinks. Often it does as she scolds herself for saying the words.
She understands hurt feelings. She understands feeling left out. She understands certain emotions expressed by others. She would like to be there for everybody and spread comfort and joy and has been told by her colleagues and supervisors NOT to get involved.
She’s attempted friendships with the friendless, has hurt feelings when “profession” gets in the way of others whom she’d like to be close to. And has a rival who continues to insult her no matter how hard Emily tries to reverse it.
It’s also given me a better understanding of doctors who seem to be inhumane with emotion – they have to be. Otherwise they would be basket cases. Tearing up during surgery is not a cool thing for the surgeon or any of the assistants. They are actually better to do their jobs by not getting emotionally involved. Perhaps that’s with any profession.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTgwBWdYvNQ includes lyrics
I wish the lyrics were included in the actual video. I’m big on KNOWING what’s being sung.