The thing that I have been most grateful for this Christmas season has been Jenna's positive attitude - despite the way we both felt, despite having family so far away, she made the best of it. She has been amazing! I wish I had drummed up the same enthusiasm. I did things with her just so her flame wouldn't die, but I really didn't do it with the same amount of energy; I wasn't even able to fake it.
For example, she wanted to deliver cookies to the neighbors on Christmas Eve. I would have liked it better if Roland had gone with her. But even he seemed quite uptight for Roland - I suppose because his two girls were sick and perhaps he felt helpless. He watched a lot of TV by himself.
Anyway, I had gone with her, but lost my breath. When we returned to the house, I went into the bathroom and spent an hour on the floor crying. Jenna dismissed herself to go to bed at 8:00. Roland and I put the rest of the gifts out and filled the stockings before 9:00 pm. I don't recall ever having put out gifts that early before.
No comments:
Post a Comment