Perhaps I Have Contributed to Her Happiness After All
B efore Jenna was born I started keeping a journal for her – writing it in first person as though she were writing it – guessing what she was thinking. I ended up with 10 volumes from 2004 – 2013. I had stopped printing pages the year that my mom passed. I continued with scrapbook pages left in the computer and flash drives and continued our first year in Oregon, but then allowed her to take over - which she has discontinued. Anyway, we have been rereading through her books during this pandemic. I appreciate having recorded what I did as there is much I have forgotten. I remember myself having been uptight all of the time – but perhaps not as often as I had believed. I had always felt blessed with such a happy girl and wanted to help her stay that way – trying hard to stay positive though not always successful and it shows in my writing particularly when her sisters would visit. I was not so much agai...