We blew the opportunity of picking blueberries for 50 cent per pound. On Friday night Richard had announced to the troop that we would go pick blueberries the following morning and leave the house by 8:30. I knew that wasn’t going to happen. It was a rough night for all of us.
I was a grouch. I knew I would be a grouch all day if I didn’t get some
sleep. When I am so exhausted and cannot
sleep I tend to cry. I have cried a lot
this month.
On Saturday the gang did not pick blueberries nor did they go to the Safari. Richard had decided on a dog park in order to save money. He invited me to come along and felt disappointed when I chose not to. He was going to be upset with me either way. At least by not going I wouldn't be shooting off my mouth to offend.
What changed between Saturday and today that
he had the gall to suggest taking the gang to Bandon. Are you kidding me? They are here to save money so that they can
move out. What are you teaching them
taking them to Bandon where we both know we’re going to spend money and throw food
away? Plus we have already missed our
window of opportunity to leave in the morning.
If we go in the afternoon we will have to leave in a hurry because we
are burning daylight. We don’t have to
go. There is always next summer. I'm sure they will still be here.
I know I’m complaining. It’s already an inconvenience having to step over one dog – but now there are two – not to mention the stuff still in the halls, on the deck, in the driveway, the shed, their room, etc. I lost my game room in the process.
Ally leaves her
toys wherever. And I am appalled at how
many half empty water bottles I have found all over the house. CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES! I AM NOT THE FRICKEN MAID! And Ally needs to be able to mind without attitude
Ally has not started school still. When she does finally wake up she starts off each
morning on her
electronics. Clair seems good about
monitoring her - but then she is on her phone looking up times, places, etc. or texting. She never seems to get
upset and has a lot of reason to. She is
the peacemaker. She bridges the
gap. And there is a lot of gap.
I lived in dorms when I was in college
which I think is different from living in a regular apartment. I have never lived in an apartment before,
but feel like I am now. Two units of
people basically keeping to themselves.
We did have dinner the first few nights they were here. Now they take off and don’t return until
Richard and I have already eaten.
We’re all inconvenienced except possibly
Richard who seems oblivious. He doesn’t always
prioritize either – and so how
can we expect Biff when there’s
no example to follow? I think he’s looking to
live on free handouts for the rest of his life.
He asked why I wasn’t
working. Richard defended me by telling
him it’s because I
can’t drive – which is
true. During certain hours that is.
Now reading scriptures and trying to calm down. The Lord has sent me this trial so that I can learn. I'd just assume not learn.
