FLOORED AGAIN part 1

It has been a major struggle for me to post discussions or write the assignments for my management class.  As I've already mentioned, I lack the passion, and yet I feel there is strength in what I'm learning if I but apply. I've noticed that I've made some huge grammatical errors to past posts . . . I'm not even going to try to correct them - at least not right now.  My apologies to those of you who have struggled through.  Hey, but thanks for being interested enough to continue.

We (students in any class of an online university) don't have verbal discussions in our classes as we don't all live in the same state or time zone . . . we have written discussion.  All my other credited classes required at least 150 words for our initial post and 50-75 words in comments made to other students.  This class requires more than 150 words - and references - and they have to be cited.  I actually lost points that first week because I hadn't cited. 

          My first discussion topic was on the span of control.  

Span of Control means the number of employees that can be managed efficiently and effectively by a manager. There are two types of span of control:

1. Narrow span of control: In a narrow span of control, a single manager or supervisor oversees only a few employees. This normally results in a tall organization – and organization with many levels of authority.
2. Wide span of control: In a wide span of control, a single manager oversees a large number of employees. This normally results in a flat organizational structure – one with very few levels of authority.

We had to answer three questions. 

1. You are a manager who works directly with employees that are new to the company. Do you want to have a narrow span of control or a wide span of control? Why?
2. You are an experienced employee who has worked for a company for many years. Do you want to report to a manager who has a wide span of control or a narrow span of control? Why?
3. You manage a team of employees. The owner of your company has asked you to report how many sales were generated by social media sites such as Facebook and Twitter. You have no time to do the report - one of your employees must do it. Tell us how you would use the delegation steps to decide which employee should create the report for your owner

 This was my first post:

I would hope that all of my employees would be able to work well together and follow instructions to get the job done well and on time. I would want to have a narrow span of control.  I know that there are some people who catch on quickly, while others may not.  I would like to show to my employees how to do something and be able to trust them to discipline themselves and get the work done.  I am happy to help when they haven't quite grasped something and would hope they would come to me if they do not understand something.  I don't wish to watch over them constantly.  I have obligations as well.  I personally would rather manage just a few employees than many.

Being an employee isn't any different than being a manager although I would prefer that the manager could walk away and let me do my thing without standing over me every single minute.  So I guess I would want the span to be wide. I am a good worker. If my boss has given me a specific assignment and deadline, I can get the job done and will ask if I need assistance.  Just as I would not want an employee to fear me, I do not fear my boss.

There are many people who have facebook accounts, however, not all users are wise.  I would choose someone on my team who has used the social media wisely and who is most resourceful and tell him/her  that I have a deadline to meet and I need him/her to get the word out and will see that he/she gets full credit for the work which has been done.  We all have talents and can utilize each talent for the benefit of the company. We must pull our resources together and work as a team just as the elements, string and tail each plays a vital role in kite flying.

My assignment for that week was on Organizational Structure.  The subject was on a company I had never heard of before: One Smooth Stone, which is a theater business and sounds like a good company to work for.  They are performers who entertain at sells conventions and motivational meetings and so forth.  My attitude toward the subject of attending said convention or seminar is briefly mentioned here.

I received full credit for my assignment.  I did not do so well at the assessment.  That first  week had convinced me that I'd be doomed in the class as I expected that each week would be harder for me with this less than wonderful attitude I have.  But I'm happy to say that I showed improvement by the second week.

The second week my post needed to be on the functions of management.  I posted the following:

The four functions of management are planning, organizing, leading and controlling.  I'm happy to see in this video (Hartzell, 2013) points out that management is needed in more than just sales.  Management is needed when conducting classes or raising funds for charity (SW project, 2015) This helps me focus better to understand management is not just about job and income - it involves so many aspects of our lives.

 I believe my weakest function is with controlling - following up to see if everyone else has followed through.  I think that because I have done my part, everyone else has, which is not always the case.  I don't know that I've had great examples to follow within the workplace.  But I do have a great example of management at home - only it's my husband who does the follow-up to find that our sons have not cleaned their rooms, or finished with their duties in the kitchen or what have you.  I need to become more observant.  I think I'm pretty good at planning, however.

 I really can't think of any outstanding managers that I have worked under.  Two of my  "managers"  were let go, probably because they lacked in management skills.  One quit because of confrontations which I don't understand.  I remember telling one of my "replacement" managers that I thought it was really important for us to have a meeting in order for us to communicate and all be on the same page.  She did have her meeting, but I wasn't invited.  I didn't see that her management skills were any better than the one she replaced.  Morale had actually gone done, as I recall.

 This video (Hartzell, 2013) also points out that we don't see half of the functions that our managers do.  Planning and Organizing take place behind closed doors - or in small groups.     I used management skills in church groups and in the community functions. For example,  I will be involved in a meeting on Thursday night in which ideas will be discussed and reviews will be made for saving the libraries in this area from closing.

Our assignment was on the difference between management and leadership.  Our topic was on the CEO of Southwest airlines, Gary Kelly, which I briefly mentioned here.

Our third week (this week) was on managerial decision making process:

I have checked into more videos and research by typing in "the six steps of decision making" although the steps are not always introduced in the same manner, I think it's the same principle, but the emphasis seems to be made more about one step or break into more steps or combine into fewer steps;  I've also noticed a different order.

Brian Perryman (2014) for example, gives eight steps with evaluation at number 6.  Carrie Olson (2015) gives us six steps.  Her evaluation  also appears as number six, while easy presentation 1 (2012) also includes eight steps places evaluation at number 4.

Regardless of what order or how many steps, decision making needs to be thought out.  Identify the problem or situation at hand, gather information and establish criteria (Olson 2015).  A good manager will analyze and choose options.  Unfortunately, it is not a step I see too often.  I don't think "ultimatums" are good choice options.

I have had managers that haven't even been able to identify the problem.  I often wondered how they had been put in the position of manager, to begin with.

There will be some instances when a manager will have to make what appears to be an "instant decision" but just as the "four functions of management" that we discussed last week, we don't always see what goes on behind closed doors.  A good manager has already observed and analyzed situations and environment of  employees are working.  Thus what may appear instantaneous to the employees involved had already gone through a procedure of steps by the manager.

Allow me to give an example from my own work situation.  There was an employee who wasn't pulling his share of the work.  He was a bit crude with his language and did not show respect to his co-workers but the customers loved him.  He evidently had some kind of charisma that only they could see.  He wasn't the top seller, but always in the top two or three.  Management had taken that all into consideration.  It had been weighing on her mind for a couple of months.  She had actually taken the employee aside - I don't know what words were said, but I know he was let go after a while.  Though it appeared to some that her decision had been abrupt,  it really wasn't.

Active listening requires listening from both management and employee  (Denton, 1992). This employee just wasn't willing to listen.

And here is a comment made in response to a class member's post about:

I agree with you that managers don't always follow the six step process.  I have had a few managers who did not even identify or evaluate the problem -  unfortunately not every manager gets to have the training that we will be learning in various classes.

I've also been in situations where the manager (I'll call her Ruth) had interviewed for a position opening at a retail store.  She had called to tell me that I had been chosen, only to call me one hour later to rag on the owner (I'll call him Mac) of the store.  Mac had given Ruth explicit instructions to interview candidates and then decided to hire someone that hadn't even gone through the same procedures as those that had been interviewed.  Ruth was actually more upset about the events that took place than I was. 

I wouldn't have had a problem working for or with Ruth.  I did have a problem with Mac and his interference.   Ruth had used the steps of management assigned.  I don't think Mac took any steps and was oblivious to the problem.  I don't know what became of Ruth, as I did not get the job nor was in a position in which I could just pop in and ask.  I think it's important that an employee has respect for his or her manager.  Equally, I think it's just as important, maybe even more for a manager (or owner) to respect employees.  I think that taking the time to take the proper steps in decision making makes a huge difference in showing respect.

 To avoid an even longer (and possibly boring) post, I will finish up on Monday.  My final thought shouldn't be posted to this blog before I post it to my discussion wall.  Both say roughly the same thing, though what I have saved for my blog gives a bit more detail than what I will post to my discussion.  And at last . . . including a topic that I'm actually passionate about.  Yeah!

Expressions

This is my face when I'm watching a video explaining absolute value:

This is my face when I'm listening to the the lecture for my management class:

This is my face for the presidential candidates this year:

There is no Passion

            By the third week of each module, I have felt stressed about my assignment at hand.  This week shouldn't be any different.  I've already expressed my opinion about management and business - and yet I am required to turn in an essay - not just of my opinion, but at least two references to back up what I think.  I am also supposed to write in third person rather than first person.  So where's my opinion?

            This week's focus is on the strength, weakness, opportunities and threats (or SWOT) of a particular company.  Everyone in the class is assigned the same topic, same company.  No wonder some professors seem more focused on APA formatting than content.  It would be easier to skim through each assignment and grade it according to format than to actually read every single one and manage to stay awake long enough to grade them all.

            I am so bored out of my mind!  Maybe not so much bored as disgusted that I have to learn all of this.  Oh, I know it's important to those who really have that desire to start a business and grow - not me.  I don't want to do the research for business!

            This afternoon I need to be to a lecture for this class.  I should probably be booting up my laptop in the event that I will be able to participate by mike.  If not, I will return to my PC and sign in to a different class.  Class starts in eight minutes.  I've been connected to the associate dean whose class I had attended last week.  What a break for me!  I really did try to sign on with my own professor.  I can't help it if the link I clicked on connected me to a different instructor.

            He will actually mute the mikes of those in the classroom, and so I am back at my own keyboard, but do have my laptop up and running just in case . . . There's just such a lack of passion on my part right now.  I can't fake enthusiasm over the mike.  Right now I can't actually hear anything.  Class is about to start.  Correction, class has started.

Two Peas in a Pod

Annett and Jenna are like two peas in a pod.  They just met this school year.   I thought it had been the first day of school on the bus.  But Annett does not ride the bus – at least not yet.  Perhaps it was in morning meeting.  I will have to ask Jenna to refreshen her poor old mom’s memory.

Yesterday, I had received a phone call from Annett’s mother, who wanted to meet me.  Jenna and Annett had set up a play-date (is that the appropriate word for a twelve year old?) for yesterday after school.  The phone call from Annett’s mother was the first that I had heard of it.  Isn’t it great when children make plans without consulting the parents?

Somehow the after-school visit turned into an overnighter.  Annett’s mom was right about them.  They are like two peas in a pod.  That’s great!  I hope this friendship will last for a long, long time.

They Should Change the Title of the Class

            I am required to take eight different management classes during the course of my studies.  Currently, I am taking the first. The most recent picture of my instructor looks like an apostle or kindly old grandpa.  The portrait on the faculty wall is older.  He is younger and looks like a deejay - kind of like Wolfman Jack - or perhaps it is just the psychedelic background that gives off that illusion.  His voice doesn't carry like that of a D.J. He doesn't seem to have the same charisma as some of my other instructors.  I've only been to one of his lectures.  It was okay, but it wasn't the most interesting one I've attended.  I just assumed it was the subject matter.  I mean, Management103: management principles.  Doesn't that title, all by itself, make you want to snore?

           Last week he announced that we'd have a "special guest speaker" for this week, but what I think it was, really, is that he was unable to do his lecture for this week and gave us a link for another professor who teaches the same class.  What a difference!  I have nothing against my own professor, but the "guest speaker" who took over this week just held my interest more or explained things better or something (a D.J. personality, perhaps?).  I'd like to attend his class again, but it is at the same time as my professor.  So my plan right now is to give myself the opportunity to once again attend the live lecture conducted by my own professor.  If that doesn't work to my advantage, however, I will spend the last week of the class attending the live lecture of the other instructor.

            Management bores me.  Business bores me.  I have had some good managers.  I have had managers who have been let go as they should never have been put in the management position in the first place.  And I have managed others - perhaps not well, but no worse than any manager that I've ever had.

            So in this lecture, the focus is on the four functions of management and the difference between a leader and a manager.  The substitute instructor pointed out that perhaps the classes should be called Leadership classes instead of management classes.  I don't know why that choice of words made such a difference for me, but I'd be willing to go along with it.  I don't particularly enjoy the idea of having to take management classes, but I wouldn't mind taking some leadership classes.

            I think that there are some individuals who seem to have a naturalness about them that make them great leaders.  There's my son, Randy, for one.  That kid's got a lot of talent and charisma.  He takes like a duck to water with most things.  He's been asked to step into management positions.  He's a great leader.  We can all become great leaders, but for some of us, it takes more time and effort to master the skill.  In my last post, I mentioned Gary Kelly, CEO for Southwest Airlines. 

            What an awesome leader!  It was never his intention to become a leader, or climb the ladder of success the way he did.  I was just reading in USA today that his first ambition was to become an oceanographer.  He had even become a certified scuba diver.  He gave that up to play football.  That didn't work out for him either.  He was an accountant for Arthur Young & Co before becoming familiar with Southwest Airlines.  

            Through this assignment, I have achieved great respect for this awesome leader.  If I am ever to fly again, I will do it Southwest if at all possible.  They are the only airline that I know of that doesn't charge a fee for checked on luggage, at least the first two pieces.  I'd actually like to work for Southwest airlines.  Employees are treated even better than the customer.  How many businesses can say that?

            I may be a leader right now and not even know it.  It's not a position that I intentionally desire, but I would rather be a leader than a manager.

 http://www.inc.com/bubba-page/6-polarizing-differences-between-managers-and-leaders.html

Two more assignments

I have had a couple of things wander in and out of my mind - but I haven't connected my thoughts.  I have an assignment in my management class to write up a 500-word essay on leadership answering three specific questions about Gary Kelly, CEO of Southwest Airlines.  I've brainstormed my ideas, but haven't formed any sentences - which I should be doing instead of posting to my blog, but somehow feel the need to post something.  So here it goes.

I have already posted two of my assignments from the philosophy class that I took.   Six stages of critical thinking found here and an outline of my power point Sometimes . . . Dreams Happen . .  found found here

In this post, I will share the two assignment from the other two weeks of class.

The first one is Making Emotions a Part of Digital Technology written  in response to this video.

Making Emotions a Part of Digital Technology

                Technology has affected our communication in several ways.  We have gone from backyard visits and using card catalogs at the local library to relying on electronic devices for everything. We've been encouraged to go to school online, shop online, work from home (online) and correspond with one another electronically.  We don't even have to leave the house anymore.  It almost seems as though human contact is no longer encouraged.  Yet there are those who seek to "humanize technology"

                I found myself smiling through the majority of the Ted Talk video featuring Rana El Kaliouby.  I genuinely admire the passion she shared for this digital emotion reading product which has been named "Affectivia".  I'd like to share some things that were discussed in the video and some of my own view points and "emotions". Three specific points come to mind.

                The first point I would like to make is that emotion-recognition technology is a great tool to have for those who are dealing with children or others who may have autism.  Our human minds don't always grasp what emotion is being expressed, but emotion-recognition technology has programmed twelve billion emotion data points.  This makes it sound as if this technology is more accurate than any human.

                Rana el Kaliouby says, “This would focus on pragmatic training, helping these kids understand the meaning of different facial expressions and how to express their own.” (Matheson, 2014)

                My second point is that this technology would benefit those that are going into marketing and graphic design.  This would enable the advertiser to understand the emotions of potential clients who may or may not use said product as it might give instant feedback of how the consumer may feel about said product.

                The third point I would like to make is that emotion-recognition technology in the workplace may assist with quality control. Employers would be able to know when their employees are really working and earning their pay or if their employees are goofing off and need to be dealt with. Perhaps employees will be able to work more effectively with humanistic technology.

                As a personal use, el Kaliouby jokes (or perhaps she was being serious) about app being applied to all appliances.  One example that she used was having the refrigerator recognizing stress.  Her suggestion was that the fridge would automatically lock so that the person who is stressed doesn't binge.  What if the emotionally stressed person becomes angry and breaks the fridge or smashes the computer because of humanistic emotional response?  While there are many positive aspects to this technology, I am not 100% in favor of it.

                Let me give you the example of the talking elevator doors.  Elevators on cruise lines will welcome passengers and let them know what deck they are on.  In the beginning of the cruise smiles and genuine pleasantries are exchanged among the passengers. However, before the cruise has reached its end, the novelty of the talking doors has worn off. Passengers are annoyed by the elevator voice.  Passengers are in a hurry to get away from the elevator.

                I make this comparison as I foresee the novelty wearing off.  I still think it would be great in a teaching environment, but I think the advertising has gotten out of hand as it is. Even my husband, who has done marketing and graphic design and does want to continue working in an advertising business, says he would not be comfortable with this app from a consumer's point of view.  We both feel that it is like having "big brother watching" at all times and that our  privacy is somehow being invaded.

                Before I close, I would like to describe two pictures and caption that recently caught my eye.  In the first picture, there are three children wading in the river and playing in the mud.  The expressions on their faces show that they are all having a wonderful time.  In the second picture, three teenage girls are shown with their eyes focused on their cell phones; one reading, two are texting. The reader reveals just a tiny bit more expression than the two "no-emotion-whatsoever" teens that are texting.  The caption reads:  "So glad I grew up doing this (picture number one) not this (picture number two)"

 

                In conclusion, we have become an electronic tech-minded society.  So many people seem so focused on their machines than that they don't even know how to respond to humans anymore.  I know that some people were surprised by the statistics of the older generation being more expressive (or emotionalist) than the younger generation.  It actually makes sense if you set your mind on the two pictures.  The older generation grew up relying on imagination and emotional contact. Many of the younger generation of the second picture are so busy with electronic technology, they fail to see or learn emotion.  I think it would be better for the majority of the human race to learn emotions from other humans and not be so reliable upon machines.

  The other assignment was on elaborating more on a certain fallacy.  I picked the one from this video below

Post-Hoc Fallacy

                                For most my life, I seem to have had a problem with communicating my point of view though I don't know when it started. I would guess it was during my teens when I picked up fallacies to use in my everyday vocabulary - which would explain my lack of proper communication.  I suppose I have been a walking fallacy waiting to happen.  Though several fallacies exist in my life currently,  my focus for this assignment will be on  the "post hoc fallacy" as demonstrated by Ernie and Bert.

                This fallacy can occur well before the teenage years. As I don't remember back this far from my own personal life, let me use my nephew as an example. There was a time when he was playing with a  light switch near the front window; at the same exact time, a fire truck barreled down the street.  Moving a light switch from one position to another has  absolutely nothing to do with the fire truck blaring, but in his two-year-old mind, he had caused the fire truck outside his window.  Of course, there was disappointment on his part when more fire trucks didn't appear as he continued to play with the switch.  That is one example of a post hoc fallacy. 

                Another example that I remember from my own life occurred when I was perhaps eight years of age.  In my bedroom were three posters of big-eyed girls.  Each had granulated backgrounds, one yellow, one pink and one blue.  My father had taken them down in order to paint my room.  He used masking tape at the edge of the ceiling in order to keep the ceiling white while painting the walls pink.  After he had finished, I started to retrieve the posters that that been removed.  I found only two, the blue and yellow.  As my big-eyed girl on the granulated pink background was missing, I frantically searched for it.  When I set my eyes upon a trash can full of the pink splotched masking tape, I cried because  I had assumed it was my missing poster crumbled in a heap.  I had jumped to conclusions.

                I think jumping to conclusions is what a  post hoc fallacy is; or in other words:  "After this, therefore, because of this"  Unfortunately I still haven't learned my lesson.  I still have that bad habit of thinking that because there was a ten dollar bill in my room before my daughter arrived and because it was missing when she left, she must have taken it.  This is a fallacy can be overcome if I will ask questions rather than make accusations.  I hadn't taken into consideration that she had turned on  the fan and the ten dollar bill had been blown onto the floor.

                My goal is (and has been) to try to analyze  not just the situation, but all of the possibilities involved. I know I haven't always taken  all the facts into account.  I need to ask questions and not accusations.  I need to understand the situation before drawing a conclusion.  I am better at trying to listen and understand.  I don't think I'll feel like I've accurately completed overcoming post hoc fallacy until I no longer jump to conclusions.

emotional References

Kaliouby, R. (2015, Dec 19). Ted Talks. Retrieved from You Tube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0N4ItKFhJDI

Matheson, R. (2014, July 31). A market for emotions. Retrieved from MIT News: http://news.mit.edu/2014/with-emotion-tracking-software-affectiva-attracts-clients-mood-aware-internet-0731

fallacy References

Logical fallacy: Post hoc ergo propter hoc

                https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NL7mai4uCb4

CRITICAL THINKING - Fallacies: Post Hoc Ergo Propter Hoc [HD]

                Paul Henne  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5A7hSaoRv0g

The Fallacy Project: Examples of fallacies from advertising, politics, and popular culture.

                https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXLTQi7vVsI

Like a Fish out of Water . . . so Far out of My Realm

          I remember taking a communications class in college.  I think it was an elective.  It turned out that there were only seven or eight students, the instructor and me.  We all sat around one table to have discussions.  We were told that we didn't have to purchase a book, but each of us would teach a lesson.

          I was the only student in the class who was not a communication major.  For the most part, they seemed to be talking in languages that I, myself, did not understand. The week before I was assigned to give the lesson, I wrote down the topic name and went to the library to do some research.

          I'd be lying if I didn't say that I had bluffed my way through the assignment.   I had used an example that somehow got out of hand.  The subject I had picked at random was also advertised on a button that one of my classmates had been wearing.  I honestly hadn't noticed until she pointed out.  Or perhaps I had, and used it on a sub-conscience level. It was a good conversation, as I recall, but for the most part, I wasn't even a part of it.  The one wearing the button apologized for steering the class away and getting "off topic".

          "Actually," I said with semi-faked confidence, "This conversation has been a great example of what I was hoping to convey."  And summed up whatever notes I had prepared for the remaining two minutes that were left.

          This mod I am taking two classes: Management Principles and Pre-Algebra.  The math class (once again) is non-credited, and yet I would much rather deal with my math class and not even deal with management - and yet this is a series of eight required management classes.  I honestly don't know what everyone is majoring in, but I get the feeling that many of the students are business majors striving for this coveted management position - or are actually in management positions at this very moment.  

         And then there or those in health care who will obviously need teamwork and leadership skills.  I admire them so much for going into health care as we all depend on them and I am grateful.  And then there is me.  Uncomfortable at the topic of business, seminars, incentive rallies, and big corporations.  I did not move to Myrtle Creek to go corporate. 

          I worked for a chapter of Swire Coca-Cola for a few years when I lived in Salt Lake City, Utah.  Our paychecks were issued out of Atlanta, GA.  I would rather know the person (or people) who sign my paychecks than to feel like a number in the system.  Our department was okay.  Sometimes there'd be some of us who would go out to lunch together, or support each other with wedding showers, baby showers and what have you.  But the turnover of employees was constant - either due to advancement or being let go. 

          I was in the imaging department - working at converting paper documents over to an electronic system.  I did not have to be on the phone, deal with complaints, or handle confrontation.  I was a responsible employee who went in, did my job without supervision, and was comfortable in my situation and really saw nowhere within the company in which I wanted to advance.  I'm introverted.  I enjoy being introverted.  It was an okay job.  I think I would have enjoyed it more if there had been less goofing off and if everyone else had worked as hard I did - or that I could have been paid 2-3 times the amount as I was working three times as hard . . .           

         Several years before that I was at Nordstrom working in the Cafe.  I felt like our department was the pion of all departments and seemed unwelcome participants whenever we were asked to go to meetings . . . we didn't sell the prestige merchandise that glorified the other departments (although I personally wasn't/am not a fan of Nordstrom products; for as much money as one may spend on an item, I should think it would be better made)

         My brother works for the MGM Grand in Las Vegas.  Neither Swire nor Nordstroms was not near as overwhelming as MGM.  What a tremendous mass of people day in and day out.  Too many people.  I felt claustrophobic as a tourist.  How would I ever handle a work situation?  seriously?  I realize there are benefits that come with oversized and prestigious companies that one would not find with a ma and pa store.  But given the opportunity of prestige or ma and pa, I'm going to go with ma and pa.

         

          I love the interaction with small businesses, the socialization of truly knowing those that I work with.  Making a personal connection has always been more important to me than money.  But I'm not saying all big businesses are so focused on money that they forget how to be personal.  Corey says MGM Grand has been great.  I think he is treated like a person for the most part.  I think he's had to force himself into that role, and maybe it doesn't bother him so much.  But Corey is introverted, too. 

           Then again, there are those in health care who I would like to respect and admire who also have to deal with management andI suppose have had their share of conventions and pep rallies. I heard that Costco is a great company to work for. Costco is closed on federal holidays.  Good for them!

        So our first assignment for my management class is to watch a video and visit this website on One Smooth Stone and answer three questions with opinionated answers but also references to back those up.  I am impressed with what they do, but at the same time, pep rallies and incentive seminars really aren't my thing.  Swire used to have those.  A lot of people all gathered in a room and lots of cheering and laughter and what have you.  It was generally overwhelming and out of my comfort zone and I was never happy about having to be there.  There's nothing wrong with being enthusiastic or trying to get your employees excited.  It was the idea of being in a crowded room with a lot of noise that made me squirm.

          It isn't just in a job situation either.  I don't like crowds.  I don't like the applause and cheer drowning out the music.  Or having to stand up every 15 seconds if I want to watch the activity going on in the field.  Why did those people in front of me purchase tickets for seating if they're not going to sit?  Given a chose between intimate gatherings vs. rubbing elbows with glitz and glamour . . .  I'm going for the intimate.  

          I also don't want to be in a management position - which probably doesn't account to what the interviewer wants to hear when I go out to "sell myself" for a job position that everyone else is also applying for.  I do know how to play the game.  But again, I seriously would rather my job be intimate as well as my life.  I need to be happy.  Conventions don't make me happy - even if they're entertaining.  I'd rather watch them on YouTube from the comforts of my own home than sitting on somebody's lap for a better view. 

          I should also be working my assignment rather than creating this post.  It's just so dang hard when there's no passion!  

          Yesterday Roland and I went to the senior event where we watched "Sully".  I'm amazed at all the cautions that were taken and the lack of understanding or communication among those trying to discredit Captain Chesley Burnett “Sully” Sullenberger, I realized that my training for management may have nothing to do with my career or current position, but maybe something greater.

Nature's Way

Roland is

allergic to birds

but he insists on

filling the bird feeder

with seed so

he can watch the

birds fly around as

he looks out the

window in his

office.

There aren't magpies in

Oregon.  I thought they

were pretty birds but

learned to hate them when

they wouldn't leave our already

pathetic crops alone.  In

Oregon the most hated bird seems

to be the blue jay.  I think

blue jays are really pretty birds  - but

blue jays are bullies.

Funny, I remember watching

"Peep" with Jenna and there was

one story in which Peep, Quack and

Chirp encounter a blue jay who

thinks she is special and is

unkind to other birds.  I didn't

know that I was watching an

accurate description of the real

life bird.

So Roland has watched blue jays

bully other birds and he has

purchased big seed and

little seed and

has decided to feed the little birds and

let the blue jays fend for themselves.

I have opened the front door a

few times after Jenna goes to

school and have seen a

black cat scurries off as

I step out on

the deck.

He runs away looking like a

rather guilty culprit afraid of

getting caught.  I'm not

interested in catching him.  If

he should be interested in

the birds (which I think is

the reason for hanging around our

yard) and catches them, I hope

he removes their corpses.  I

really don't want a bunch of

dead birds in

our yard.

Sunbeams and Blackboards

I taught Sunbeams twice in my mom's ward.  Both times I was blessed with four reverent children who folded their arms and listened to the lesson.  They may have been too quiet.

Ever since I've married, each class - not matter the age - that I have taught in primary has had at least one very quiet and focused child and at least one who is all over the place - except for my lesson.

Since coming to Oregon, I have had the sad and traumatic, the devastation, the "Oh, I love my teacher" and the "good helper" - that's all been the same kid overall.  I think the most that I ever had attend a single class last year was three.  Before the year came to an end, it was generally just me and Elizabeth.  My lessons were of no interest to her. For the most part, she pretended she was a horse.

This year I have her cousin, Hayden, who just recently turned four.  He's been with me since January.  Then, just a few weeks ago, they added Christopher who had turned three in February.  I don't know who thought he was ready for sunbeams.  He's still in diapers. I don't think he's ready to be in sunbeams.

Granted, three years is a long time to be in the nursery.  It is a hard transaction going from playing with toys to just sitting.  From my observation, those that are in nursery for the longest, have the hardest time  adjusting to being still.  I know my Jenna did.  She still does, actually.

 I thought that perhaps having two children would be easier than just having one, but Hayden has taken it upon himself to be the boss of the class and to discipline Christopher and forget about me.

The lesson I had prepared for yesterday was on food and clothing. I cut an apple in half to show them the star inside.   

Hayden was impressed, but did not want to eat any of the star.  I cut the sides of each apple to give to Hayden and Christopher.  I also gave them pretzels and continued my lesson as they ate. 

 I told them that the clothes we wear come from different sources: for instance cotton comes from a plant which comes from seed,

 wool comes from a sheep;  his bumpy coat gets shaved off and it is used to make sweaters and socks.   

There is even a fabric called silk that is produced by tiny creatures that we call silk worms.

Hayden thought I was quite entertaining but refused to believe any of my "tales".  In his mind he knew that all people are smart enough to figure out that all clothes come from Wal-Mart.

Christopher found some chalk near the chalkboard and decided to start drawing with it - which upset Hayden.  After all, he is older, therefore he should be able to delegate Christopher's every move.  Oh, please.

If I notice the chalk and erasers, I will put them in a bag and hang it from a hook above the chalkboard as they can't reach it, and so I knew there was a piece of chalk hanging in the bag.  I retrieved it and let Hayden have the larger piece.  He proceeded to draw what he said was his name.

Hayden then excused himself to go to the bathroom, so I sent him down the hall to get a parent or grandparent to escort him while I kept my eye on Christopher, who decided to add his own handiwork to Hayden's.

Hayden came back all upset that Christopher would dare mess up his name, and so I told Hayden he could stand on a chair and rewrite his "name" so that it would be too high for Christopher to mess with.  His signature looked a lot different from the first.