The wedding is now behind us, but
still my plate seems full. I am
exhausted both mentally and physically.
And I am certain that I am also experiencing a hormonal imbalance.
I vegetated all day yesterday. Literally.
I had the boob tube on, but never saw a complete program as I would fade
in and out of my slumber. I hadn’t slept
well the prior night. I often have
problems sleeping when I am overly tired.
My subconscious mind always seems to dwell on situations that I can’t
change. It drives me nuts – especially when
I am so exhausted.
Given that and the fact that I had
taken a Zyrtec before going to the wedding reception and then again before
going to bed. It must have taken all day
before it finally wore off. At least I
hope it’s worn off.
My brother Corey had tried to be
supportive – to both the family (as I had a son getting married) and his
partner who was auditioning. Both had
scheduled event for the exact same time.
And he managed to do both.
When Corey’s partner had finished his
audition, both got dressed up and entered the temple grounds to be in family
pictures. They were in a few. The one with everybody. The one with bride and groom in front with
uncles, aunts, nieces, cousins, friends, just whoever . . .
Then
our photographer asked which family should be photographed first. I opted for the bride’s family with a lot
more people – at least four were under the age of twelve. I thought it would be easier to keep them there
rather than move them around and back again.
But my family got left on the back
burner. They left and I wasn’t even
aware. So the only photos that they were
in were the ones with everybody – though the photographer had taken some of me
with Corey and his partner before the bride and groom came out. But we did not
get any photos of five that were there on the groom’s side in pics with just
the nine of us.
I
felt bad. And I know it is wrong to be
upset about it or dwell on it, but I did get teary- eyed about it. And when Roland asked if I was catching cold,
I just couldn’t hold back anymore. And I
knew it was stupid for me to be crying over something I couldn’t change. I should have said something sooner.
It’s over and done with. But Corey’s partner was tired having had only
two hours of sleep. Mom was antsy –
because she just seems overwhelmed with crowds as she’s gotten older. So they left.
And Corey said they had said good-bye to me. But my head has been so full this month and I
can’t think straight and I didn’t hear them or see them leave.
There were two photographers – one
from each family. I think Bill was
getting annoyed with the other photographer who obviously doesn’t have his
years of experience. She was sweet
enough – but definitely not Bill. He was
probably more flustered than I was.
There weren’t near as many pictures
taken of Randy’s wedding as there had been with Tony’s – when Bill was working
by himself. Especially at the reception –
where Bill had arrived on time (which doesn’t seem normal for him) but the
bride’s side of the family didn’t seem to care or wanted to be bothered with
being photographed again. And the bride
and groom themselves didn’t arrive until the time when the reception was
scheduled to start.
Jenna’s dress had gotten dirty – and she
wasn’t in the greatest mood. I don’t
even know if she’s aware that Corey’s partner is in town right now, but I plan
to take her out to my mom’s house and take pictures myself as he’ll be leaving
tomorrow. And since the dress Jenna wore
the other night is not clean, I will be dressing her in another.
It’s Mother’s Day. I won’t have to be assisting in the nursery
today as the priesthood will be giving all the women a break.
Last night Jenna gave me an apron she
had made – so excited about her gift that she just couldn’t hold it in.
Now she would like to work on making a
gift for Biff – who has his 25th birthday tomorrow. It’s been put on the back burner – again. I so often feel like Biff’s birthday has been
lost in the sauce for so many years. For
the most part I don’t think he even cares.
But it would be nice to receive some acknowledgement.
Mother’s Day has often been put on the
back burner, too. But I think Jenna
plans on changing that.